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I’m not the person I used to be — June 5, 2016

I’m not the person I used to be

Okay, so the title is a little bit misleading, but it’s true, I’m not the person I used to be. And I don’t necessarily mean that in the personality or physical appearance sense, I mean that in terms of my adventurous side.

Yesterday (was a wonderful day, alhamdulillah), I went to Six Flags with a few of my friends from college. It was wonderful. Most of us had sort of drifted apart this past school year for certain reasons (which I might make a blog post about soon, but maybe not), and it just felt nice to reconnect with them and talk about things that were not school related. There was still some awkward tension between us because we’d drifted apart a lot during the school year, but I think it was one of the best days for our friendship because we hung out outside of school for the first time doing something fun. Anyway, that’s not really what this blog post is about lol. Somehow I always end up going on tangents.

When we got there, I realized that the amount of anxiety I have for roller coasters in general just sort of increased over the few years. Last time, I went to Six Flags was in eight grade, when I was a mere 13 years old. While I was still scared of coasters like Kingda Ka and Superman, I still managed to go on coasters like Nitro and El Toro. These two coasters are still pretty huge (as in more than 100 ft tall) and have steep drops, but 13 year old me was able to go on them with no problem. In fact, though I was scared, I actually enjoyed it.

This time around (age 22 years), I was absolutely terrified of roller coasters to the point where I became anxious during the smaller coaster rides like Runaway Mine Train and the kiddie coaster- Harley Quinn. In fact, my anxiety reached a breaking point when we went on Skull Mountain, where I didn’t know what to expect at all since it was so dark in there. I was screaming during the entire ride. When the ride ended, I didn’t realize why I was screaming so much.

Needless to say, it was certainly a fun day, and as a group of 6, we made so many memories that I will never forget. In a way, it was a way to celebrate us completing 4 years of a 6 year PharmD program. Here’s to many more fun times ahead.

DISCLAIMER: This isn’t a post about anxiety or anything. I don’t think I actually have anxiety to the point where I have panic attacks. I realize how severe a condition such as anxiety is, and I have never been diagnosed with anxiety. Maybe I have become so aware of certain things, that my mind doesn’t allow me to enjoy rides as much as I used to.

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